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I woke up this morning to an email telling me that I hadn't shown up for a (rather important) class where I was supposed to hold a presentation. And, also, my essay was late.

Up until this point, I thought I'd actually been on top of things. Not so!

It sucks. I suck. My new deadlines are now in January, which, well. Yes. Now there's more time but... Äh. Behold, me, the giant failure. I really thought I wasn't late yet, but when I started looking through, really looking through my papers, I realized that yes, I did have all the information. If I'd been keeping track properly, I would have known this. But I wasn't, so I didn't, and now here I am.

I spent the day feeling sorry for myself, being angry at myself, and effectively getting absolutely nothing done. Brother is coming to get me on Friday, so if I pushed it, I could have this done until then - but I also have work both Thursday and Friday. I'm so very, very disappointed in myself. I really thought I was getting past these kinds of fuck ups.


Tomorrow I go Christmas shopping! I have a List and a Plan, and I have confidence that there will be less people out there than past Christmases because people have been clever and bought things online in advance. Oh yes. It will be so.

Other than that, nothing new has been happening. I figured out that headache thing I was complaining about a few posts ago. Yay!

Icelandic flatmate has decided she's staying in Finland after she finishes her Master, which is also not a bad thing. (I'd maaaaaybe be a little bit happier about it if she stopped leaving beetroot smudges all over the kitchen, but in the grand scheme of things, I really have no leg to stand on when it comes to criticizing other people's cleaning habits.) The apartment has dropped to the usual 16 C indoors, as it does every winter. Ah, student housing. It will go up a little in January, I think, once there's more people in the apartment again, but for right now it's... actually a little bit cozy. I have a legitimate reason to drink a lot of tea, and walk around wrapped in a blanket.

Finally, I want to make a Christmas voice post here - but the quality of my recording equipment is very, very bad and there's a weird background noise to it. I can't quite decide if it would be worth it to do it anyway. Is it worth it?